January 2012
3 posts
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pyar
It was something I carried everywhere
It is something I carry everywhere
A kind of displacement from the world
A manufactured loneliness despite of you
A flick of anger would precipitate it
A manicured sense of injustice
Like a golf course blown by a storm
I don’t know what to do with it
Or what good can come out of it
If any
I can’t deal with people blaming me
For something I did do
...
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mammaries
aku merasa terbebani dengan tempat tinggalku. temanku di tempat kerja pernah tinggal di delhi. ia membawa-bawa kenangan tentang masa itu seperti malas mencari simile. aku pernah tinggal di boyce st. di sebuah basement rumah sandstone yang menempel di dinding tebing di atas sebuah pacuan kereta kuda. setiap pagi aku dibangunkan oleh taktiktuktiktaktiktuk swara sepatu kuda dan pekikan joki. suara...
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brot
i was going to search for more street art oeuvre but i realize i dont have to coz ive got danarpramesti on my dashboard. i used to want to take up more creative things like stencilling or rollerblading but then i realized danarpramesti already did all those things and more. i dont envy her, i wish her all the best ;p. its just that sometimes i used to wish that i was a more creative person. ok i...
December 2011
3 posts
2 tags
US AIR MAIL
Im just remembering all those years of sticking with you Even when you were totally crap And the atmosphere is littered with cigarette smoke And the sweat from your forehead And now youre apparently dancing with the stars A non-dancing golden bear And a cute girl bearing the weight of the world on her shoulder Cute warbonnet girl Im not asking for anything in return Just an acknowledgment That i...
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Tegunk
Kerja intelektual menggoreng pisang Seperti memesan iced chocolate dalam tetekmu Aku tidak pernah merasakan Sendal menggantung dari tali rafia Di pohon jati tempat ojex mangkal Tidak bisa teler kemudian menulis puisi Maupun bertemu brondong Kemudian coli Begitu banyak sop buah aneka juice ice campur Menenun benang wol di boncengan paman Bagaimana mentransfer tubuh ke dalam tulisan Biarpun pake...
reney's omphaloskepsis: fuckyeahtwentyfive →
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reneymosal:
Hi there. Been a while. Jadi begini. Kira-kira 2 minggu lalu gua ultah ke 25. Cuma beda sehari setelah itu lalu jadian. Semuanya tampak oke… 1) gua jadian sama orang yang punya sifat2 sama karakter sama body type yang sesuai sama yang gua pengen 2) sejak itu satu per satu deadline penting bisa…
October 2011
1 post
2 tags
flite
i feel like replacing the airplane mode button on my go switch bar with something more practical like the seven zen habits of highly consumptive people
i eat capitalism for breakfast
September 2011
6 posts
2 tags
scrabbling
i need an extra n to spell out yr name on wordfeud
i know u like me too by yr nervousness as we walk along the pavement for what seemed like centuries
and a nanosecond
i can feel the quiver in yr voice
as u regale the coolish night air with stories of repressed urges (not yours)
i want desperately to embrace you
but both of us rely on the reliability of love
to extinguish itself when it has...
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want
Mungkin aku ingin jadi dia. Atau aku ingin punya pekerjaannya. Better pay, won’t make me dumb. At least not too soon. Atau aku ingin jadi pacarnya, atau pembantunya, bagian dari hidupnya sehari-hari. Mungkin tukang ojek langganan yang bisa menanyakannya pertanyaan-pertanyaan yang tidak akan dia jawab juga. Atau dia jawab tapi tidak kedengaran karena udara di saat kita bergerak cepat bisa jadi...
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marah
took shower at an abandoned shopfront. had to stash my bike for the winter (honda tiger). water ran grey. dust. on walls and everything. inside showerhead. a security guard came, stared at my naked body. i stared back. walked out of the shower into late afternoon at an office. everyone was still there. cornered a colleague. collared him, i said, how long has he worked here huh. nine years, he...
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king sheriff
I’ve been tryin to write poetry and failing. Someone tweeted many moons ago, about being a parent: join the ranks of the vague, disoriented and always tired. I feel like that whenever I try to put digital pen on digital paper. Everything feels like it is made of glass. I had lost a project that I’ve been working on slowly for three years maybe more. I was going so slow the person I was working for...
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mineral water
i dont know what to make of
you a buddha reclining
your naked hips radiating heat
i hesitate to touch you
what was i afraid of
what was i clinging to
a semblance of loyalty
an addiction to delayed pleasures?
i touched your hips
and you disappeared into a terror
August 2011
4 posts
porpoise
I suppose dis is progress
agora on the tip of my fingers
Theres no such thing as a free app
if only i cd get a 0% installment program
On contenment
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eto na ang huling el bimbo
this is the last boogie
this is the last cha cha
this is the last burial of childhood memories
make compost out of burning leaves
the symbolism of a death chorus
euripides apos mekhanos
this is the last boogie
this is the last cha cha
this is the last burial of childhoodgood memories
veste de perang kemerdekaan in guyanan ticking linen
moving in slowed motion
your white gown hot on my...
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letter from the artist as a young man to a young...
your freezer hasnt worked for a long time, you need to defrost. sunflower seeds for pine nuts work but turmeric for saffron? dont cut corners in a circle. if you meet someone pretty forget it, shes not meant for you. go for the abandoned garlic cloves in the corners of bars. they will keep you entertained and cure your masuk angin. cracking utensils, like nigellas scimitar herb-chopper, are cool,...
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mencina
kinezopeisi, or the panacea of the greeks
kalo nggak panas ya masuk angin
i find it amazing
that in a city of 12 million desperados
i cant find a single decent trustworthy
air conditioner technician!
perhaps she is right
we all listen to the rumble of chariots
no it is not in our hearts!
too attentively
believe me motherfuckers
the soul is a terrible thing to waste
on oxblood horween...
July 2011
6 posts
2 tags
mati metafora*
poetry has taught me to experience pain
without having to stop for ice cream
i saw you on the street the other day
but you were a different person
the metro mini ran over a dog this morning
my friend complained of having lost her ability to dream
i tweeted the fact that there is the word asu in asuransi
i do not want to work in KL and leave #jaemanis
she is in ambon at the moment
a...
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thought (blank)
so what if i did visit you at your house
you mightve imagined it too
(in a tumblr reverie)
the furniture wont be disturbed
wed have a bit of chit-chat in the living room
then its straight to your bed
the silence of pillow cases
the empathy of burning windows
je suis toujours unfaithful
you fix your hair up with a hairpin
not a word said
avant or après
ma vie a bien changé depuis
i...
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button
i went to toko maju to buy a vintage button
mbak, ada butons Briare nggak?
as always,
i was expecting the best out of people
do you not get disappointed with life, you ask
not having you even as a possibility in my life is disappointment enough
everything else is
childs play
sometimes i wonder if we secretly understand each other
discretely understand each other
yes places get displaced
...
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belly
heaven is a displacement on earth
a submerged gorge
and three
constant burgeoning forth of
ten thousand clouds born of
rock and shivering bamboos
i always lose my way
in a forest of
i must do it this way
cant see the wood for the
freeze!
giant eels careening in overtly familiar territory
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stadium
1. my life is not a bare ruined discotheque
2. and you have lost a lot of weight from wearing braces
3. he heals his pain of being impure at heart
4. by riding a bicycle
5. around the lake at hangchow
6. plum blossoms stop in mid-air
7. the green water shimmering
8. i cannot feel you
9. this is useless
10. the skylark has lost all its hair
11. i wish i was there
12. instead of chairs...
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fora
1. i think i may have found the key
2. no-mind in hyper-intellectual tzu-jan
3. i feel like punching my lcd monitor
4. when i found out it was early 2009
5. i couldve made you happy
6. i couldve pulled the rug from under you
7. but im in way over my head
8. i might visit you one day
9. youd greet me in your nightgown
10. in the middle of the day
11. bring out your book of misery,
12. i...
June 2011
2 posts
2 tags
illuminations of ulysses
our family just cant tolerate success! true, even if everything depends upon a red wheelbarrow. your name is minke, what is mine? you dont have to be beautiful to turn me on, no, not when dandyism begins at the waistcoat and ends at the spatz. jaleswariiiii! whatcha doin? i met ferdinand de saussure, what i was thinkin im not so sure. dude, wheres my car? youve got three piston cups! a person is a...
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kruk
too much music
semacam keheningan yang dipaksakan
mengertimu dalam gelap kos-kosan
too many books
menggali aspal dalam ingatan
semacam terik depok raya yang mengelupas jerawat
too many things
to do to see to sow and never reap
ulurkan tanganmu padaku
too few beer gardens
in which i could disappear in a haze of brondongs
their chatter fills me with delight
too little life
the...
May 2011
4 posts
2 tags
2 tags
divinyls*
Sejak kapan mulai mengoleksi plat
sejak 1992, begitu pindah ke australia untuk sekolah kelas 1 sma.
Kenapa plat
pindah dari koleksi kaset ke koleksi plat itu seperti pindah dari biasa nonton di laptop terus nonton di bioskop. good vinyl covers are just beautiful, apalagi yang double-fold, seperti pavement’s wowee zowee. atau yang ada fancy detailsnya, seperti actual zippers on the...
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turangga-rangga (v.2)*
buat @pepsigolda
selesai. dalam kerumunan sale dan penggorengan keramik. mau kuukur hujanmu dalam measuring cup? mumpung masih diskon. IDR250k atau menonton janet jackson. begitu susah memesan aisle dalam penerbangan airasia. tidak perlu lagi npwp, hanya customs tax yang harus dipecahkan dalam botol anggur. selamat malam, rokokmu terbalik. kau menghisap ujungnya yang berapi dengan kegeramanmu.
...
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project salvage
sometimes i feel like ive said everything ive got to say. sometimes i feel like im just repeating what ive already said over and over again. this is certainly true in conversations, but i think its also true in (my) writing, though it might be less obvious. or maybe it is obvious and im just too obtuse to notice. whatever. so why not do that deliberately? (re)write again what ive already written,...
April 2011
3 posts
boneka kaca*
oleh Gratiagusti Chananya Rompas
boneka kacaku kemarin pecah
aku terjatuh dan
iapun terjatuh
berkeping-keping
di atas lantai
kamar tidurku
lalu kubeli sekaleng lem buatan jepang
yang kutukar dengan begitu banyak lembar ribuan
(ah, uang jajanku habis sudah!)
di sebuah toko buku elit
tempat bule-bule kaya datang dan habiskan rupiah mereka
kupikir
lem mahal itu dapat membantu boneka kacaku yang...
Mala....*
oleh Danar Pramesti
Adakah ucap tersisa?
Bisakah waktu bercerita?
Kirimlah semua yang kurasa
Lewat malam di antara rel kereta
Atau mungkinkah bajaj berkata?
Benarkah sepeda berdansa?
Sambungkanlah semua yang kurasa
Lewat telinga dalam belanga
Aspal jalanan berubah warna
hitam..kehitaman..abu-abu..lalu hilang
rata..agak rata..lubang-lubang
Sampaikanlah pada PEMDA ia butuh dana
Aku...
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RT please (sebuah refleksi tentang @kopdarbudaya 3...
@kopdarbudaya 3 malam ini (15 april) sangat menarik, walaupun saya tidak setuju dengan banyak poin pembicaranya, @okkymadasari. tentang pembicara yang satu lagi @kramput saya tidak punya banyak komentar, karena sepertinya dia tidak ngomong apa-apa sebenarnya, walaupun nada bicaranya seperti dia sedang ngomong sesuatu yang penting.
@okkymadasari berbicara tentang hegemoni di twitterverse....
March 2011
4 posts
2 tags
force quit
“my friend is moving into this place”
“i like this place!” (steering car)
“i dont”
“its just so grey.”
“dont you like the baseball diamond?”
“the corners are missing. wabi-sabi.” (stopping car)
“i like it i guess.”
“you …”
(kissing passionately for two minutes. your lips felt hot. our...
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disappointment du monde
i forgot i told you that my dad died
how he died
little insignificant details only you knew about
since i told only you
disappointment filled the early night air
but i dont like your boyfriend from jember
he kept telling me i would love jember
what do i care jember what the fuck
im still disappointed now that i disappointed you
you sashayed into the pub
you practically bounced in
and...
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kroncong morits
in nomine patris et filii et your name here
what motives and repercussions destroy the world
what world
people asked me how you were
i said the miyagi prefecture is holding up fine
decorative clouds between reality and imagination
what should i think about you your husband and the azure of your sky
it was stinking hot that day
the dogs were losing their hair
what motives and repercussions...
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torrents*
7 up series - bbc doco visiting a bunch of people from different background/class every seven years since they were seven. udah sampai 49 up.
400 blows - if you copy balzac, do you copy balzac?
a clockwork orange - the milk bar is the model (dicontek kaleee) for blur’s the universal video.
an american in paris - 1951 musical.
antichrist - lars von trier fucking up charlotte...
February 2011
12 posts
univ of vip
lolipopsuper:
what about a pair of Yuketen’s
rugged soles
to rub on your shitface?
or some Maharatta hooded
scarf
sewn by vintage technology
spun yarn in a way that creates irregularities
our days are so full of oxymorons
vintage technology
spun irregularities
crazy conservatives
stupid education
consistent love
buy me jeffrey campbell lita platform bootie
in brown leather
to...
2 tags
capture
i forgot my suit
i forgot my shoes
sleeping in yr daddys car in a freezing barn is not my idea of a good life
runny eggs
makeshift shower
i wonder how they do things cheaply in southern france
we saw your cousin and her husband on the bus the week after
the sleep of happiness all over their faces
i dont like the way you absent-mindedly picked up my hand
and cleaned my nails with yours
...
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\m/
our eddie who art in heaven hallowed by thy name tapi aku seventh son of the seventh son tak hapal pula rime of the ancient mariner beri aku powerslave! supaya lenyap my fear of the dark! sekarang sudah 2 minutes to midnight think about my wasted years! the evil that men do! where eagles dare no more prayer for the dying! rampas kartumu dari the clairvoyant biarkan your infinite dreams fly aces hi...
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Kuper
Hey hipster
Hey kuper
Ow oow livin on prayer
He didn’t wanna go home
Kept screaming into the mic
Six years of frustration
No we aint gonna take it
Of waiting in kebimbangan
I’m too old though
For festivities
Beyond 9 p.m.
Every rose has its thorn
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envelope
i just couldnt be bothered with the repercussions
i just couldnt be bothered with rain on exam day
it was only a block away but there were people cutting each others hair on fire stairs
this is all too obtuse for the discerning
but i have lost that feeling that i might miss something if i dont ever turn up
what did happen that night?
you were jealousy personified
as a mandrake root with...
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FC0105
Speaking to a Full Count, 0105.
Speaking about 1997, Les Purikajinzu was in his prime.
Popular jeans Full Count!
Entering in the sequel
Sold out, arrival day, lined up in front of the store before
Opening
Remember that.
Model 0105 represents the Full Count,
Cotton is said to be of the highest quality Jimba Bue
Produced using cotton fabrics, the famous 13.7oz.
Fall colors are good,
Be...
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limned*
Shoppe,
Bergdof’s
disappeared.
Avenue
blankets,
She died,
On
Pasternak
into flame
come down
buckling, wheezing
people of Essen
Indologists
fact of 900 exhibits
Heinrich Goetz!
Ceylon and Afghanistan
fleet” on the Rhine
still oh Essen
Ajanta, Villa Hügel!
friendship
her face on it
windy
politesse
Grace Hartigan’s
Gaspar Gonzales,
up the street
my neck
...
2 tags
2 tags
babi
makan babi di jakarta gampang. di mana-mana ada babi. pating tlecek kalau kata nenek saya. padahal nenek saya tidak makan babi. memang harus semacam masuk ke dalam sebuah klub babi imajiner, supaya tahu di mana saja ada babi. tapi sekali masuk, youre a member for life.
dulu waktu saya kerja di majalah a+ 1.0, kami punya tradisi jumat babi. yang islam soljum, yang islam tapi males makan babi....
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broken, bab 2
saya tidak pernah suka orang yang bunuh diri. sylvia plath sekalipun. apalagi orang yang mengancam bunuh diri tapi nggak mati-mati. haduh itu paling harap. bikin panik aja. total attention seeker. tapi saya ingin bercerita, tentang suatu saat di dalam hidup saya, waktu saya mengerti, kenapa ada orang yang merasa memang lebih baik cabs aj dari hidup ini.
waktu itu saya baru dua bulanan tinggal...
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resigned
im writing this on the new ommwriter app/widget/whatever
ive used something like this before
i cant remember what its called
i wrote a 55-page long essay on sastra indonesia online on it
put it up on blogspot
was pretty garing
i wrote it as a letter to my friend @holiday_sendiri
i used to write a lot of letters
when i lived in australia
and i was really depressed
i really missed jakarta...
January 2011
25 posts
2 tags
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